Lewis Carroll’s Alice in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass have been some of my favorite books since my mother started reading them to me when I was a little girl. I enjoy the nonsensical nature of the characters and Alice’s insistence on questioning both the world around her and herself. As I’ve become older the books have continued to resonate with me in different ways at different points in my life. With this whole Clipper Race adventure it’s certainly felt at times that I’ve been in my own bit of a Wonderland with some of the unbelievable and nonsensical things that have happened.
From signing up for the race in April of 2018 to traveling back and forth from the UK three different times for training, Crew Allocation, and Prep Week to fundraising harder than I ever have before, it’s felt like an unbelievably impossible thing to accomplish. How was I going to actually pull off the massive task of paying off my berth fee for this thing? To add to the fun in the winter of 2019 my HR contract didn’t get renewed due to an acquisition, then in summer of 2019 we were dealt a curveball in the form of my partner losing his job at a big tech company in Seattle, so on top of everything suddenly our income became a lot less stable in one of the most expensive cities in the US to live. Somehow, I knew it was still going to work.
Over this journey I have grown so much and overcome so much. Since signing up there have been many 11th hour moments where I thought the goal of making my berth fee happen wasn’t going to be met and I was going to have to pull out of the race and let down all of the amazing people who have supported me. At every point something has happened to keep it going. It was not without a lot of panic and tears and wondering if it was really all going to come together. This last January was the final final final extension deadline and well…
“I can’t believe that!” said Alice.Lewis Carroll, Through the Looking Glass
“Can’t you?” the Queen said in a pitying tone. “Try again: draw a long breath, and shut your eyes.”
Alice laughed. “There’s no use trying,” she said: “one can’t believe impossible things.”
“I daresay you haven’t had much practice,” said the Queen. “When I was your age, I always did it for half-an-hour a day. Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.”
drumroll… WE FRIGGIN DID IT!! I am so happy and grateful to say that all systems are go and I am 100% on the Seattle yacht, my spot is secured. Now I’m working behind the scenes to plan some pretty cool things to fundraise for the Suicide Prevention Lifeline in order to help them with the awesome work that they do. With a little more than a month to go until the fleet arrives in Seattle it’s all systems go, I can’t wait to use this race to do some amazing things. If just one life can be saved by speaking out about my journey and encouraging others to look out for themselves and others and find their reason to stick around I’ll call it a win. It’s a wonderful time to keep believing impossible things as there are plenty of curveballs that could still happen before I leave Seattle May 2nd. I am going to keep believing and manifesting that it will all be fine.
Love to you all!